A long weekend… then a study break

Written May 29, 2006 in Personal

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I spent the weekend mugging, and finally touching on the aspects of Physical Chemistry. I’ve been running away from it just like how I’ve been running away from so many other things in life. I don’t hate pChem, just that the ideas tend to get a little too abstract. Anyway, I’ve covered most of it at least once, and I get the general idea of it, finally. Now, I just need to be able to derive everything from scratch. I’ll put that off until a later date I guess, for now my focus is to understand everything conceptually.

I was playing Worms last night, and it reminded me of the days in school when we used to hop into Glayen’s lab and get him to join us in massive LAN parties under the pretense that the labs were undergoing essential maintainence. We used to do that weekly, playing games like Counterstrike, Halflife, Doom and not to forget, Worms! People like me, MJ, Jamie…

I’ve had some time to think about things through over the weekend, and I asked myself what I need as closure to the whole matter. It’s not about the result, for it’s a foregone conclusion, but what I need to answer to myself. To be able to look back later on in life and say, ‘Hey, you did what you needed.’ No more ‘what ifs’, no more ‘buts’ I guess. Things that have to be done, have to be done. I just want to be able to smile and say, ‘It’s all over, you can open your eyes now Ivan.’

No, the exam stress in Imperial isn’t killing me. It’s not easy to pass. I just need 30% of each paper to pass, which is like answering 1 question correctly in each paper. I just want my first class, giving a good start to my university life, and a good end to my first year. Although it could have been so much better… if only.

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